i wish i could tell you some good news

I wish i could tell you that it will all be all right.

That you never had to settle.

That he called you back.

They emailed you back.

They sent the job offer.

I wish I could tell you that.

I wish I could tell you he regretted it so much.

Not saying goodbye.

I wish I could tell you that he thought about it for days

that it tortured him for nights.

I wish I could tell you that.

I really would have if it were true.

I wish I could tell you that there are so many stories of failure

that wait in the spotlight of those who shine

I wish I could tell you that the world is fair

That you will travel the world

You will be happy

You will be invincible.

Because everything worked out.

You had the chance to see the world

to feel it in your hands

to embrace it with your arms

to rub it off your fingers

to scrunch your nose at it

to laugh at it.

I wish I could tell you that.

I don’t know.

God.

I don’t know.

I don’t know how this is supposed to turn out

and that is so scary

so scary.

It’s like we’re back to square one.

I hope you’ll be happy.

I hope it’s all in the timing.

I wish I could tell you that.

This time.

I don’t know.

These are weren’t to comfort you

when they sound so hollow

so empty

there is doubt

there is hope

there is everything in between

no binaries to stop you from believing what you want.

Good luck.

Oh how I wish you the best.